Why have I not been working on this site much late......... BUSy with a caPiTaL B.....
I have a lot of things going on in my liFE...DON"T we all?
I have maNY sites I am trYinG to keep UP with....THEN added a neW one ! Don'T we jUST love the NET?!
I DO!
THEN their was a new LOVE... I mentioned Frank in Poetry I wrote... The one I thought was the LOVe of my life.... BOy was I mistakeN....... HE cared for ME... BUT HE did not LOVE me...Though HE did have me fooled! AND HOw! Then i fooled mYselF TOO !
When Ya been abused and dumped on! Mistreated and CheaTeD ON... Its hard to see truth when blinders are wanting LOVE...AND Love is wantinG Blinders ! In other words your mental scale weighing is fighting ...LOVE ^yes... NOT LOVE...no-v... So time can onlY tell!
Well tiMe tolD! Frank kept saying i love you as a frienD... Leaving notes to such... Love You as a FRIEND! BUt when i asked him if he wanted me to Pack and leave....I DOn'T KNOW?! Like not sure! WELL you want us to stay and see for the next 6 months...yeaR? I DON't knoW?! BUT theres not another womaN ! Frank I believe 95% theres not another woman! YES 5% I thought someone else!
MY mom asked suRe it ain't another maN? NO mom he is too much of a MANS man to be gaY !!! WAIT mom...WHAt did I just say... HE does hang out with guys MORE.......Like 97 % moRE ? HMM??? NO I do not think so........BUt yea, I got to wonder.......
Well time did tell........
BUT is was the SPIRIT of GOD telling me move on...
YES GOD... I am a Christian.... I had backslid.... I prayed and prayed LORD what do I do... I got myself in this mess for LOVE as we call it! Which way do I go.... SHOW me the DOOR of THY will........
OUT of the mouths of BABES!!!!!!!!!!
MY four year old grandson started sayin:
MAWMAW move back to your beautiful HOUSE!
MAWMAW BUY loTs and LOTs of chocolate. why? Cause me and bubba wants chocolate milk,chocolate candy and chips! Bryce added logneY(balogney) and IENERS(vienna sausages). OH added Walker, MAWMAW..... Frankie can't stay the NITE!
Frankie don't love you no more mawmaw....
Grandson knew NOTHING of my situation... nothing about my thoughts... OUT OF THE MOUTHS OF BABES!!!
A friend Prophesied on MY SON SONS WILL HAVE KINGS AND PROMINENT PEOPLE BOW TO HIM. HE WILL BE A WORKER FOR GODS GLORY!!! SERIously!!! I believe iT!!!! I told the friend how strangers would come up to my Grandson Walker, as a infant. They would pray over him in stores like Walmart, Kmart, Mall, and cafes like Barnhill's (where his mom worked theN) JUSt PRAY over him, some would speak, some just prayed silent and left! Walker was hooked to apnea machine because born early.Little wires coming from everywheRe, Lungs were underdeveloped. He had to be on meds to make him sleep and meds to wake him up. because of the caffeine and the lungs I guess working improper.
BUT more and More my Grandson surprizes me HOW much the SPIRIT can work through HIM! Like Last week choir director said,''WE are starting childrens choir", " I need volunteers!". They said Walker Jumped up on the pew "hoLLeriNG ME!", " I wanna sinG!" Director said," there if a small child can any of us can!".
And So i packed and left going to MY beaUTifuL house in Alabama....
Family and friends you need to see him...You need this guy....That Guy....HE'd be GOOD for YOU!
I want GOD to lead me to one this time! I would say!
God will have to put one in my laP litterally, for me to get anotheR! My picks been wrong picks ! Gods will be the right Pick!
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WELL GOD HEARd.........
Though it was a metaphor...
A few months later....
I went to visit a ex neighbor. I visited her before. With and with out her kids there. She been kidding me for years..."I'M gonna get you married to my soN !... YouR goNNA be my daughter in-laW !". I just laughed it off cause HER son was a friend, and I was better friends with his girfriend. Well he and she left and moved way up North. I had not seen them for a year. This day i decided to go see Betty(ex-Neighbor) Guess who opened the door?! BILLY ! Bobby(Betty's daughter, and I had run in to each other, and came to her moms together)and I stepped out of my van and to the house. Billy(NEW MAN) opened the door to the house seen his sister. WHO'S VAN? MINE ! I said stepping out from behind his sister. DanG Ya'll ain'T coming in ! And slammed the door ! HIS mom was holleriN who's out there?! He said NO bodY ! I SAID NO bodY?! WHO's NO boDY sure not me ! Before His mom seen me she HOLLERED "PATSY you bettER let her in that dooR!" she told BILLY. LOL!! As I stepped in Billy was talking bent over into my ear, YOU STILL IN DENILE ! I said YES still in deNiaL ! Then retracted, NO your in DENIAL ! I said I ain't seen ya in a year give me a hug, and HE did !
Well the night went on...the more it went on the more he got closer toWarDs me. If I moved over he would wait a bit and move over to me more... WheN i turned my head he would inch closer. If he got up to get drinks and such he would sit closer noticably! When i went to the bathroom, I came back and grinned ,and moved to the other end off the sectional couch. He would say Now then. His mom and sister would go to LaGHING out! MOM said "YOU cut that out Patsy,", I done told Ya your gonna be my daughter in-law . Bobby said "Your already family, you might as well be familY !". Billy said HMMM?! GrinninG. Later that night as we watched tv.. Bobby left... Billy got drinks(SODA) and served me... when He sat down he sat right up against my leG ! I moved over some, but couldnt much, I was almost in his moms lap! Billy said, GOT ya against a wall ! I laughed ! Later in the night he got up to change the movie. When he came back He swooshed down in one quick smooth motioN ! Relaxed out across the couch and plopped his head barely oN my leg ! I thought I should move ! BUT didn't. He got up to change the next movie, and Plopped down this tiME!,Right dab in my LAP !!! I looked down and saiD, COMFortable??? HE smiled a GORGEOUS SMILE,SayinG YEP.. I sure AM, Looking into my eyes! His eyes were dancin and laughing with GLEE!!!! MY hearT leapeD !!!!!! I went to leave little later on... NO you can't we wont see you again for months. Billy asked his mom, "When you see her last mom? "ME a year", he said ! His mom replied, Its been 4 months. HE grabbed me and said your staying ! I'll sleep on the couch... NO I'm going home! No its tooo late!! You might get hit by a drunK.... Bobby may be on her way home now from being out and hit you ! HE grabbed my KEYS from the table, "friends don't let friends drive with drunks on the road! ","NOW! SETTLED !".
We sat to watch more tv...His mom went to bed...See you in the morninG Patsy snICKERING..... Billy once again started tracking me down I ran awhile! BUT when I remebered earlier, MY thought was, I said GOD would have to put the love of my life into my laP ! AND HE DID !!!!!!!! GOD absolutely PUT him in my actual LAP !!! LOL!!!!!!! So I did not move when he GOT real close......Staring at me like he done most the day and nite! I turned and stared back into his eyes and said YES? HE said I just like to look! Your CRAZy I remarked. HE touched my face lightly! I pulled his long, curling lightl, strand of hair from his face. He kiSSeD me! I kiSSeD back! OH..WHAt a Kiss..It was Light but strong.... Warm and inviting... He pulled back and Looked into my eyes! He grabbed me and pulled me to him and fire was lit in the next kiss.... I said I am afaid I am Dreaming! Why? he said. CaUse I only dreamt of a chance ever with you! He pinched me as if tickling.. I said YEp ! I am awake! HE said NO dream then! We went to bed... He said I'll sleep on the couch... I said No i will sleep on the couch, you sleep in your bed... He said lay down with me... I said if you promise...HE said what.. I said to do nothing BUT sleeP.... HE said Promise as he held my hand on the way to bed. He kissed me lovingly and said good night. I said night. Fully clothed, holding each other we drifted right off to sleep.... when we woke he kissed me and said be right back. I went to the living room.... In He walked, carrying what he Promised before we went to sleep.... A BIG BOWL OF COCOA PUFFS ! LOL !!!! I kept mY promise,HE said ! I said YES both your Promises !!! HE said not that i wanted to keep the other and grinneD !!!!!!!!
When I went to leave they said..Stay! I gotta get home, I said.... Billy said only if ya come for supper... I can't I got to cook what I thawed out, Chinese ! His sister Bobby walked in.... Where ya been all night.... Billy and HIS MOM said HERE, grinninG ear to Ear. I stayed a bit longer and Bobby and I left...
SO she said what happened? I said we watched tv.. He chased me more after you left... we slept.. she said and? I said Thats it! She said slept as in sex? NO i said....... i made him promise at 3 this morn that Only if HE PRomised to do nothing, I would sleep in the bed with him! HE Kept his Promise!!! She said all these years we finally gonna get you married to Billy! I said WE will see!
We went to Sulligent 15 miles away to help a friend of Bobbies. When we delivered the needed things for them. We went back to my Place. I said I do not even want to cook chinese...Just something QuicK! She said get what you got and will go back to moms. NO I said ! Why not? Its late! She said No its not its only 7:30. Its later than that,I said coming to see the clock. She was right only 7:30. We got the stuff went back to her moms! Walked in... PaTSY mom screameD! BIlly JUST grinneD and said YOUR in DeNial ! Bobby and Mom Betty said Yep she's in DeNiaL ! I said, Maybe Not in DeNiaL anYmoRE !!!!!!! Billy said WHAT? I said maybe not in DENIAL anY MORE!!!! AND grinned at HIM!!!!!!! WE went out later to the Opry Hall and had a great time,Me ,Billy, and Bobby. Till Bobby left with her friend....Setting me up grinning when she left! Little while later clappin to the music...Billy yawned and put his arm swiftly behind me... From the cornr of mY EYE ...I seen that FAKE FAKE ! I said as I turned to HIM smiling with Glee! HE just squeezed me and pulled me to him and kissed my cheeK!
Oh the thing about denial....BILLY used that line eveRy time I ever seen him.... When He was with his girl friend or not. Never did he come on to me. And His girlfriend Knew I was attracted to him. I told HEr I been attracted to Billy, first time i ever seen him cross the window, going to move his mom in next door! BUT he is your Man and I would never do Nothing to hurt yours and My friendship! I never did either!
BUT Now that SHE is way up north.... and HE said It was over to her.... to her!
Well that changes EverY thinG Don'T IT ?!
Hope you enjoyed my Romance meetinG... I DID !!!! Time will tell........
BUT I got a Peacefull easy FeelinG!!! YEP ! I believe this IS IT !!!! AMEN !!!!!!!!